To be powerful

What is it like to be powerful?
Why does one wants to be powerful?
To protect? or to accomplish selfish purposes...

The powerful are often feared.
But for those who didn't choose to be put into that position, they are neither here or there.
Do they walk pass you as though you are invisible because they fear you?

Ask yourself again, is this what you really want.

If YES, then there is more to come.

You outta slap yourself for being so weak.

So suck it up and swallow it in.

You can because you have to.

You know you have to.

Stubbornness

There is a lot on my mind.
Questions I know that I know if no one gives in, nobody is ever going to be happy.
The definition of happiness to me is very vague, so vague.
Happiness comes with consequences.
How do would I know if I can be strong enough to believe in you.

I found him

He is finally here, I can feel his presence.
Will the others be convinced?

Thoughts after Guinness

I actually wrote a really freaking long piece,

but it all comes up to this....

"What if what I want is wrong?"

The demon

I'm suffering...inside,
With reasons I cannot preach,
Burdens I cannot breach.

Replacing you is hard enough.
I dare not get rid of you,
Or else, I'd have nothing left.

If driving myself to the edge
Is what it takes,
To see your face once more.

Then without you knowing,
I would do so
Just to know that you have existed.

I bring pain wherever I go,
And shall be punished
For doing so.

My greatest sin was that
I fell in love with you,
The demon himself.

The Game

Here I am talking to myself again
Trying to figure out what I've been doing wrong
Let me know where all of my love should go
Why all the hurt and the pain and the tears I can't show
Trying so hard to walk away but baby this I have to say

"Hear my heart, crying in silence, it hurts so much. Trying to run from your smile, your touch, waiting, pretending this game's a waste, knowing you just can't be mine."

If you could only look my way, if you could only listen to what I have to say

Praying someday you'd be mine.

Twillight lover

I saw you, showing me, the directions I should go when I was driving.

I saw you, holding me, your sweet words linger.

I saw you, teasing me, telling me in all ways you would love me.

I saw you, carrying me, so that I can warp my arms tightly around you.

I saw you defending me, when my guard shatters and bullies render.

I saw you, singing to me, songs we invented out of silly preschool rhymes.

I saw you, sleeping next to me, your tight embrace caresses the warm skin against mine.

I saw you, smiling at me, my world was perfect so.

I saw you, waiting for me, at the end of the aisle where all I can do is just smile back at you.

I saw you, and all the things you did with me, a very long time ago.

And all because I saw you... I never want to wake up.